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everything has been going really good for me lately. i can really say i am happy. me and meredith are doin real good, i have so much love for her, and she tells me she feels the same way back so i guess its iight. lol. it seems like my whole group of friends have kind of just drifted away from eachother. i hate it so much. but iunno, there really isnt to much stuff i can do about it.  zachs birthday is coming up and he is going to try to get us all back together for at least one night. i wish i could express to everyone thats reading this how much i really do like meredith. and its not even a liking thing any more i love her.  i know i always said i loved meagan, but this is nothing like it. this is so much deeper, and so much better. but i am going to go ahead and get in the bed i got school tom :[     but il wirte back in here some time soon. i love yall...stay up

i love you meredith

-jay-

wasup, not to much here, just woke up.  this weekend was iight. friday night hang on i have to think about it..OHHH..friday night i went to the t x game. it was iight. but mere wasnt there..so i jus kinda chilled and watched the game. i saw some old friends from trinity, that kinda made me miss it, but its cool cuz now i have corey and paul and all of yall.  sat me and paul had to get up and go work. it wasnt to bad. sat night i got to chill with meredith. we rode around with abbey and phil for like fuckin 2 hours doing nothing. but its cool, because i got to chill with meredith. and i came home at 2, and my mom was coming in at the same time, and i guess she just didnt notice what time it was because she didnt say anything to me. iunno, i thought it was funny. but that was my weekend, later

-jay-

wasup every body. hows everything goin for yall? its been pretty good for me. a little something came up early this week. and if you are reading this im sure you know what im talking about. but any ways..it made me realize alot. one thing would be, i want to be with NO ONE right now except meredith. she has made my every day life so much better, honestly she puts a smile on my face every day. another thing would be that...hopefully thats not going to change for a while ^^. i have found my self just talking to my mom or some one that doesnt even care, and just rambeling on about meredith. i can NEVER get her off my mind.but thats not a bad thing at all. and to all you "haters" out there (one specific person) no one cares what you have to say any more. your not going to hurt any one but your self. and that whole "I ruined one of your best relationships" you brought that upon your self. and if you cant see that right now, i hope you realize it some time in the near future. im out

i love you meredith                            -1- jay                                              [t]

wasup yall its like 10 40 in the morning and i have no idea why i am up this early? i get to go see chevelle play tonight down at waterfront hopefully. that will be tight as hell. last night was pretty boring, we were up at wendys for most of the night...like usual. i missed mere alot, she went to her dads for the night so she could go get her car, and bring it back here. were gonna go homecoming shopping soon, she was beggin me to go with her, so i guess il go. i dont fo real have to much more to say..il talk to you all later.i love you meredith

-1- jay

have you ever thought about why you were here? like here on earth. i was thinking about that tonight while i was watching my little brother play outside. hes still so little, and fo real doesnt even know what life is about. but then i thought to older people..im still so little and i dont know what life is about. God put us all here for a reason and he has everything happen for a reason no matter what it is. say you get in trouble with your parents. God is giving you a sign and its more than likely to stop what you are doing. "God works in mysterious ways" always remember that.

now on a happier note.. me and mere are doin good. were supposed to go tom to look at homecoming fits. im excited. im ready to get some new clothes, but fuck homecoming. lol "we dont dance" inside joke with mere..me and paul were talking tonight just about how much better things could be and they will be. but honestly i am really happy right now. i found myself a beautiful sweet girl who feels the same way about me as i do her. and i love it. i feel like i am just making a better person of myself. i dont know. maybe reality will smack me in the face soon. or maybe i really am doing better. i hope it the second choice. lol. but i g2g thanks for readin yAll tell me what ya think..

-jay-

i love you meredith....<3                                  we miss you trey